Saturday, May 5, 2012

Enjoying Verses Overindulging - Help!

As you may know, I graduate in less than a week. It's a very fun and exciting time of year, except the excuse, "celebrate because it's your time doing _______," has added some inches to my waistline. Most people wouldn't notice, because I like to think I'm good at dressing to suit my shape, but it's really getting to me.

This morning I have senior photos with some of my sorority sisters, and all I can think about is... "Why did I drink that beer, eat ice cream and have carbs so late at night?" The answer: Because it was one of the last times to sit on your butt and be lazy by the time, with some of the most important people in your life who will be leaving the state soon. But, it is beyond frustrating that I can't even focus on finding a cute outfit to wear and am dwelling in self pity.

Also, although I've been trying to be positive about my knee injury, the inability to do cardio isn't helping this mental battle over my image.

^This is how I feel! ^

I normally have great self control, but for some reason I can't figure out a balance between diligently logging healthy foods using My Fitness Pal and enjoying "not so healthy" food at all of my favorite places in Tucson. Not to mention, for the past four years I've missed out on some GREAT restaurants. Of course, it's only natural for my friends to drag me to each of them to make sure my  "last tastes" of Tucson are complete.

So what do I do?

I really don't want to miss out on these last moments with phenomenal people, but I have gained weight. This is not an exaggeration... Since Spring Break I've packed on about 6 pounds, which is a lot for someone that's 5-foot-3. Maybe posting this for the world to see my struggles with weight management will help me regain self control.

But wait... What's on the agenda after senior pictures? Brunch at this famous breakfast place called Bobo's that serves specialty pancakes bigger than the plates. I've never been there [a major Tucson fail] and I made these plans a week ago. I can't break them and yet all I can think about is that I hate the way I feel and look.

Hopefully I'll add some exercise to my day after the pancakes... Wish me luck!



  1. Sweet girl a scale can only read numbers it can't weigh your inner or outer beauty! Embrace what is going on in your present and when you are there with your people you won't need as many bites of the good stuff because you will really be tasting it and enjoying it! Good luck my dear! This is a wonderful time of year and focus on your accomplishments and all will be well:) miss you! xo

  2. I feel your pain. I put on about six pounds over the winter and was having a really difficult time losing them. My pants were tight and it was constant reminder of the weight gain. The extra pounds are finally coming off, and I'm sure that when you're really ready, you'll be able to lose it too. Just try to focus on the good times. Good luck!